Day Twenty-Two: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life

Ah, fuck another one of these kind of questions? Really? Ah, crikey. And right now, not going to lie, cannot be arsed to to go and find another philosophically challenging question on google. Fuck it, will just stick to this one...I'm not going to enjoy it though....

Something I wish I hadn't done. Fine. You asked. And so you shall receive.

I wish I hadn't wasted so much money on so much crap in my past.
I wish I had never discovered the brilliant, yet useless hobby that is video games.
I wish I hadn't made so many people cry for so many different reasons across my life (yeah, I can pretty much remember each time, ffs).
I wish I wouldn't get so easily emotionally attached to things/ people.
I wish I didn't waste so much of my life watching so much TV or on a PC.
I wish I wasn't so high-and-mighty smart sometimes.
I wish I hadn't moved around so many times during my childhood.
I wish I hadn't forgotten about so many people from my past.
I wish I hadn't ruined so many people's lives in the course of my life.
I wish I could have spent more time with my Grandad before he died.
I wish I had't said that one, tiny, stupid thing to some people.
I wish I could have said 'Yes' far more, far longer and started earlier.
I wish I hadn't been such a tormenting brother.
I wish I hadn't been such a shit son.
I wish I wasn't so damned pessimistic.
I wish I hadn't got involved in a lot of stuff.
I wish I could have had more things my way (not materialistically)
I wish I could stand up and say what I want, and then take it, instead of working myself up and forcing myself to needlessly fight for it.
In short, I wish I wasn't me.

But, I don't, you see? Everything that's happened, every moment, every pint, every pound, every tear has led to me being me, right here, right now. And without those moments, I would be nothing.

And I wouldn't trade any of it. Not a single second. Not for anything in the universe.

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