Day Fifteen: Something or someone you can't live without, because you've tried living without it

Blimey, not the most philosophically challenging question, is it, really? I mean, there's going to be a whole lot of meaning in what I'm about to write, but it's no 'Share your views on the way that the hierarchy of religious sects function'. Mind you, I wouldn't like to answer that. That sounds boring.

Anyway, back to today's question. I think I'm going to give several answers for this.

Yes, and no. No in the sense that, I evidently can live without; because here I am, living and fully functioning without them. However, no, because I don't like being apart from them.

One person is my Grandad Mick. He died a week before Christmas last year. At this point in time, I have accepted that fact that he's gone. I don't like it, not one little bit, but I've accepted it. So, the weeks after Christmas last year were pretty damn hard for me and my family. Sure, the tough exterior of me armoured-up and put on a brave face. Inside was in torment though. Was in such a shit state of mind around the time, and if there is anyone reading this who had to deal with me at the time, thank you all so much. First time in my life that I had experienced death from someone close to me. Bad times. So, although I've learned to deal with it, I really didn't think I could live without my Grandad. He was a brilliant, funny, cruel to be kind, amazing drinker and all round great guy. And he had amazing taste in music. I miss him very much :)

There's a lot of people in my life that I find it hard to live without. Having so many different set of friends is hard to keep up with sometimes, especially if they live all over the bloody country at Universities. As I've said in a previous post, all the people around me have all had such irrevocable impacts on me, it's remarkable. I really do appreciate all you people so much, yet never get to spend nearly as much time with you all. Not good. So being apart from them for such extended periods of time is hard sometimes. Not to mention living across up to 3 homes at any one time.

I miss so, so many people. All the guys from Uxbridge. Loads of people from Great Marlow. The guys from Tchibo. Everyone from Uni. My Mum, Dad, brothers, grandparents...I miss too many people. If this could be the one thing that everyone of the people I miss reads (which, they all potentially could) I would say how much I love and appreciate every single one of you. You're amazing. Yes you! You there! And you over there! Even you over there, the quiet one in the corner...miss you! :)

I suppose if I had to narrow it it down to missing one very specific person right now....yeah I could do that. Well, she's brilliant. She really is. In the grander scheme of things, I haven't even known her for all that long; but I can't wait to see her again. She really is incredible and fantastic and superb. She's genuine. Honest. Great looking. She just refuses to believe that I think this about her. But she so, so is...aren't you, sweetheart?

You badger, you :)

Half way there guys! :)

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